Life after death

Hey guess what?

My name is Joniece. I got pregnant at 18 and placed my child for adoption. To some people I am incredible for my brave decision, to others I am selfish for not handling my "own problem".
If you think you of me as the latter, well then here's to you;

I'M SELFISH.

Now let me start off by saying... I don't think really think I am selfish for placing my son for adoption because even if no one else does, I KNOW how much I wanted to keep him for my own. I know how much I internally struggled to make the decision (and stick with it) to sign those relinquishment papers, and furthermore I know the heartbreak I felt in having to physically place him in an attorney's arms. I DID NOT place my son for adoption because I "wanted to live my own life" or I "wasn't responsible enough, and didn't want to deal with the lifelong responsibility." I did it for him, so he could have a loving home with two parents, and a family,
centered around Christ. (Which he is currently doing)

However for those women out there who are thinking of placing or have recently placed, let me tell you, there is life post-placement, life after death I'm going to call it. Because placing my son for adoption felt pretty similar to internally dying. I am going to admit I have gotten to live a life that had I chose to single parent (although I would have been happy with this decision), I never would have gotten to otherwise...

For me, a large part of it was being a Flight Attendant. In becoming a Flight Attendant a fewn months after Gavin's birth... I have made the best of my "life after death". I have gotten to travel to new places, meet new people, and explore a whole new world much like Aladdin and Jasmine did, just not on a magic carpet... on an airplane ha ha. I don't want this to be misconstrued with me placing my son for adoption because I wanted this life, but I have simply chosen to not let me decision be in vain, and take advantage of the opportunity and benefits I have also gained through making the SELFLESS decision I have.

My advice to you if you have placed is after you're done sitting in pitty (which I LOVE TO DO, and it's completely justified) make sure to make it count! Do things you wouldn't have been able to do had you actually been selfish .... Finish school, learn to paint, take dancing classes, sit around the house and do ABSOLUTELY nothing (Sorry Linds you aren't able to do this much ;) I shall babysit), travel, go on dates EVERY night, Whatever it is your little heart desires... do it for your child, but more importantly do it for yourself! You deserve a great life as well :)


Sincerely,
Joniece











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